Hurdling

"Someone Great" - LCD Soundsystem [Had to take the embedded video out cause it was screwing up my layout intensely--watch it here.]

It's strange how it seems that one day things can be going well, exciting even. Things are changing in your life in a good way, you're on track, you're feeling confident. And then the next thing you know, something happens totally out of left field and throws it all off track.I feel like every time I get a good groove going, life drops a bunch another hurdle in my way, as if just to test me. To keep testing me. I've almost gotten to a place where I can just say to myself, it's just another test, you just have to get through it. Which is helpful, because it makes things seem less catastrophic in a way...though admittedly it can take me a couple weeks to get into that frame of mind where I'm ready to tackle the obstacle and get back on track. To remember that I'm strong and competent and that things will be okay.

I mean, it's hard not to freak out when bad things happen out of the blue, and feel like, seriously, what did I do to deserve this??? But eventually you have to accept that sometimes sucky things happen, regardless of how good you are, how smart you are, how beautiful you are, how giving you are, how nice you are. Things just happen that are out of your control.

And then you just have to let go, and move on, and jump over the hurdles, and keep running.

Good things:

1. Getting excited about my new career adventures.
2. Going to Saskatoon soon and see my parents and family friends! For the first time in a year and a half, and the first time during warm weather in at least 5 years!
3. When I get back, I'll be able to make my apartment look normal again (long story).
4. Berries are still in season.
5. I get to see Kirsti soon!!!
6. Real estate prices are dropping...maybe I'll be able to afford to buy before I turn 30?
7. I really like my new gym shorts.

Seven, not too bad.